1. Calling It Quits. I ended a six-year relationship with my son's father. I guess that it lasted so long since we were parents to a sweet little boy. We did not have much in common except for the fact that we loved two things: jazz and Chikoy. I've read in Girl In Hyacinth Blue that if two people love the same thing, then it means that they love each other, even just a little bit.
Things were between the two of us were rough and whatever love we had for each other became diminished and neglected as time passed. And the fact that he was abusive - physically and sexually - did not help things. So given the general equation of things, I decided not to grow old wanting something more.
Like what Julia Roberts said in Steel Magnolias, "I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special."
2. Out of the Frying Pan Into the Fire. In order for me to get rid of Koy's father, I decided to get into another relationship. Sh*tty, f*cked up idea. What made it even a lot sh*ttier is the fact that the guy, who happened to be someone I grew up with, turned out to suffer from psychosis - delusional jealousy. I was subject to a lot of mental anguish, which lead me to nearly punch the living daylights out of him and imagining myself hanging from the loft of my house.
Like what Julia Roberts said in Steel Magnolias, "I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special."
2. Out of the Frying Pan Into the Fire. In order for me to get rid of Koy's father, I decided to get into another relationship. Sh*tty, f*cked up idea. What made it even a lot sh*ttier is the fact that the guy, who happened to be someone I grew up with, turned out to suffer from psychosis - delusional jealousy. I was subject to a lot of mental anguish, which lead me to nearly punch the living daylights out of him and imagining myself hanging from the loft of my house.
Thank goodness the scars from that episode faded after a couple of months and the worst thing that can happen to me when I look back to it is to have some cold shivers running down my spine.
3. Schoolboy. My son started regular school. After over a year of occupational and speech therapy, Koy is now in kindergarten. He fell in love with his teacher and finally found writing actvities interesting.
The day my son started school, my mom congratulated me for being a school parent. She said that she hopes that she remembers every naughty thing I did back in high school.
What she doesn't know won't hurt her.
4. Trainer-Slash-Stude. No matter how a career somewhere else - may it be another department or another call center or another industry - or forsaking everything to be a farmgirl or to go back to school, I still am in the training room. So far, I still cannot picture myself elsewhere. I have decided to continue working here yet work on the next phase of my life. So it's back to the university for me while still working as a trainer this 2008.
3. Schoolboy. My son started regular school. After over a year of occupational and speech therapy, Koy is now in kindergarten. He fell in love with his teacher and finally found writing actvities interesting.
The day my son started school, my mom congratulated me for being a school parent. She said that she hopes that she remembers every naughty thing I did back in high school.
What she doesn't know won't hurt her.
4. Trainer-Slash-Stude. No matter how a career somewhere else - may it be another department or another call center or another industry - or forsaking everything to be a farmgirl or to go back to school, I still am in the training room. So far, I still cannot picture myself elsewhere. I have decided to continue working here yet work on the next phase of my life. So it's back to the university for me while still working as a trainer this 2008.
5. My Something Special. Getting into a relationship was never part of my plan. So many things have happened in 2007 yet there are still so many loose ends to fix and I told myself that I needed to find me first. It's because my biggest sin is basing my self-worth on how much people value me as a person.
But one day last November, love meandered into my life. I've been ecstatic for close to two months now, which is more than anyone can ever ask for (it's supposed to be for just thirty minutes, right?).
Yes. Waiting can be tiring but it is such a good idea.
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