The Faery Who Was Kissed By The Pixies

This is my card for the day. I picked it from Freda's Faerie Oracle deck (artwork by Brian Froud), which are the most beautiful tarot cards I have ever seen.

This is Morna, a faerie who is gifted with the magic of love.

This is my reading:

Love given. Love received. Metaphorical open-heart surgery.

Starter Reading: Oh, wow! What can I say here? Love, sweet love. Accept it, burnish it up, add to it, and pass it on. The presence of the Faery Who Was Kissed by the Pixies suggests giving and receiving love and intimacy in any of a wide variety of relationships. She gives notice that this is a time to open and heal our hearts. Different aspects of life may well be flowing happily together, healing separations and hurts from the past. Bonding may take place and deep feeling emerge. Changes for the better may occur in all aspects of life, but especially in relationships, which may be deepening and becoming richer. You may be experiencing love therapy for opening the heart as new relationships begin and old ones develop. Enjoy!

You can also get yourself an online reading from the World of Froud website.

Too Much of Something

too loved
too spoiled
held and kissed too much
too gazed at
told that I look great too much (that I believe it)
too looked after
too pampered

A girl can get used to this, you know. Because too much of something is wonderful.

Generic-Looking

They say I look like:

1. Aiza Seguerra

2. Criselda Volks

3. Tetchie Agbayani

4. Anna of Shaman King

Looking Away

Would I rather be a sinner or a saint?

I'd rather be a sinner because I think it is better to look up to others rather than to look down on them.

Anyhoo, I'm actually neither. I have always been a work in progress.

Missing

I miss Koy. He's having the time of his life at my parents' place. It was very difficult to send him away and it is still difficult. It is something that I do not want to examine too closely because it hurts too much. I want him with me but the best thing to do sometimes is not the easiest.

In the larger scheme of things, he is better off with my parents. Mama and Papa love him to bits and he gets all the attention that he deserves. He also gets to go to regular therapy sessions and my mother is always around to assist him with school. It is also more cost-efficient to have him there. Koy also gets to do a lot of activities that he can't do in the city (i.e. trips to the zoo and frequent swimming).

Mama told me that Koy now has regular sleeping habits and better eating habits, which pleased me to the extremes.

I miss the "MOMMY!" when I get home from work everyday, falling asleep with him beside me, the tickling sessions, how he smells after bathtime... everything, including his tantrums.

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I also miss Ivan. His shift is from 7:45PM-4:45AM. My class for the next two weeks is 6AM-2PM. Since school and the rainy season have started, travelling in the city has become a nightmare.

Spending a couple of hours everyday is not enough, especially when it is just to snuggle and to sleep. Mealtimes are also crazy. I get up in the middle of the night to cook. Having no household help is about to wear me out to nothing.

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If only I had all the time and money in the world, I would have Koy and Ivan around all the time. Plus an animal shelter and tons of shoes.